I've moveeeeeeeeeeeeeeed! :D

Why? Because I realised there're too many people reading this blog which makes it hard to express thoughts freely. And there're people I don't want reading too. Though this place reeeeally holds alot of memories dear to me, there'd still be a day I'll still have to let it go eventually.

I shall consider letting you know the address of the new site if you ask nicely. (:

Ikea then HollandV laterrrrrrrrr! HEH. I'm so excited. :D

And I'm still damn bad at directions. I usually have to check online or the street directory first before heading out, esp in the central area. Super throw face right. Driving doesn't seem as interesting as before anymore, I still pretty much prefer to be driven around, can sleep, can eat, can talk on the phone, and for reasons I don't know why, it's much easier to hold in pee. Hahahaha.

Finished watching TKA2 on Friday! The ending was damn touching pls. I don't normally idolise actors, but the lead actor in this show totally got me smitten! When he smirks, FWAHHH, can melt! *drools*

I can't wait to collect the race packs for the Mizuno and Nike+ runs! Esp the latter!

Wheeee. (:

I'm contemplating on shifting this blog to a password-protect-enabled site. It has been 635 entries and counting! Since, 11th Sept 2004. Omg four freaking years. Back then I was still blogging like a twit, yeah go ahead and laugh at me all you want. But it was the 'in' thing back then! Ohwell, I'll decide again whether to shift or not anyway.

Speaking of decisions, we have to start choosing the specialisation track for the course in 2 weeks time. So it's either Pharmaceutical Practice or Clinical Trails Track. PT prepares me better in terms of job prospects but I freaking dislike having to study Medicinal Chemistry (related to OC) and advanced modules of DDS all over again! CT on the other hand though, focuses only on that area but it has more patient contact which I pretty much prefer. I'm half decided. :/

Some long lost friend (more of an accquaintance actually) initiated a chat with me just now. At first thought, I suspected he may have turned businessman and was trying to sell his products to me. But it ended up like this:

Like wth pls. We've never contacted in yearrrrs and the only 2 things we ever said to each other was prolly "Hi" and "Bye", and now out of the blue you wanna borrow money from me!? Think I'm stupid or what. There're so many reasons I can think of that he may be trying to scam me, though 50bucks isn't a very huge sum, but it's still money right?!

1. From what I knew of him before, he has tonnnnnes of friends and brothers, you may call them. Would there not be a single person who would be willing to spare him 50 bucks?

2. People are flexible, aren't they? Just let whoever you owe money to to extend the 'deadline' till you get your pay. Can't be that hard right?

3. Are you that broke that you don't even have 50 bucks on you? Ask any kid on the street and they may have it in their wallets, if not in their bank accounts. You, a 20 year old, penniless? Senseless!

4. Why me of all people? I don't even know you well.

And the list goes on.

And it's true I actually have cash flow problems! So it wasn't a lie, a white lie if you would like to call it. (:

I feel less burdened now with the common tests ended. Thank goodness. And I thought it was really depression or sth. It was only the stress. (:

COC in the morning. Did ushering which I think I haven't done in ages. Come to think of it, it's actually rather fun do take up such duties. Heh.

Last night was rather eventful. Finally a TCC session after sucha long while. The atmosphere wasn't as lively as previous times, and the guys were discussing about gory stuff like how they extract the wisdom teeth, the drilling, twisting, slicing and all. Great appetiser huh. -.-

Went for afew rounds of Dota. I haven't touched that in a damn long time. But despite my skills being quite rusty, I actually did a First Blood for the first time! Hohoho.

Simpang-ed then Mustafa-ed. Mustafa has everrrrything you can't think of anything they don't sell. So I was suggesting Mustafa organise a contest for people to figure out the things they don't sell! Okay, so random right. It just popped my mind while walking down the aisles earlier.

Anddd. I don't like the feeling of having to drive home alone, feels so lonely. Roar. Now I understand how the others feel each time they drop us off. Seriously. And I think it feels worse when the driver's a female! It somehow just seems more appropriate for the male to drop a girl off. :D

Alright. I neeeeeeeed sleep. I hope I'll be able to find some time to head down to Bedok Reservoir to give some support to the team later. (:

Alright, last paper tmr. Gotta press on. After the common tests gotta start on the projects already. Yikes.

I think I've been daydreaming alot. I can stare at my revision notes and my mind's a blank. Flip the page over and start daydreaming all over again. Sigh.

Immunology paper was damn horrible, though we were given 10 more mins on top of the 15 mins of open book time during the paper. Everyone started panicking when Mr. Michael told us we could flip thru our notes alrd. I had an immense number of qns I wasn't sure the answers to and I still couldn't correct them in the end.

Pharmacology was a killer as well. Seriously, who would be able to remember if one of the adverse effect is hypokalemia or hyperkalemia?! Goodness.

Ohwell. Looking forward to the gatherings and outings planned ahead. It's gonna be a mad rush all the way until August. Projects seriously drain the life outta us.

Back to the books. Tata.

I think I'm suffering from depression or sth. I seem to have the symptoms for it. Uhhh. Maybe I'm just too full of longing or sth. Ohwell.

I had a really bad dream this morning. I dreamt granny left us. I woke up hating myself for having such a terrible dream. The dream felt so real, and I usually never remember my dreams by the time I wake up. I'll never be able to forgive myself if anything happens to granny.

No. I don't know what I'd do.

Then there'd be no more love.

Why am I doing this to myself? I hardly know myself anymore.

I need an outlet.

pick a star and make a wish.
then pick another star and wish that it comes true.

Okay. Random stuff. I feel so.. I don't know.. empty?

There're some things you wish could be within your control but you know that you cannot force things to turn out the way you want them to. So how! Like that lor.. Wait for the sky to drop, wait for elephants to sprout wings, wait for pigs to climb trees, wait for plants to grow dollar bills, wait for Denise to get a GPA of 4 points, wait for you to realise that I'm right beside you.

Sigh, okay, rants aside.

I don't know if it's because of me, but the f/s' been quite strained if you realised. I tried to restore it back, but I guess it's either fate's not on our side, or you just cannot be bothered to make any effort at all. I've always tried, but things would always happen. That night, I was so eager to surprise you. Did you notice the disappointment in my eyes when I drove off? I don't know what's become of you already, we no longer share anything together anymore, needless to say to meet up. BFF? I don't know anymore. And I doubt you even drop by here alrd.

And I'd pick another star and wish I had the ability to turn back time.
To when we were as close as peas in a pod, sardines in a can
and when there wasn't pain beneath your smile.

Drug names are damn hard to get into my head. Why can't they name them in simpler layman terms like 'anti-fungal', 'inhibition of cell wall synthesis', 'inhibition of RNA synthesis'. Or better if it's like A, B, C, D, E, F, G. HUH HUH HUHHHH. Antibiotics alrd have a hugggggggggggge chunk to remember. Why so many types of antibiotics!?

Okay, I'm ranting like nobody's business. I should be glad they only included anti-infectives, occular disorders and vaccines in the common tests, or else I'll just shrivel up and die from toxicology and pharmacokinetics. GAHHHH.

I've a moth with a broken wing in my room now and the lights aren't working. Daddy said he'd fix it up tmr. Damm, how to study like that.

My 3 reports aren't completed yet. I've to study for Pharmaco. I needa rearrange a new appointment with the doctor cos I realised it clashes with training. UGH. Suddenly I feel like I've a ton of things that my procrastination is weighing on. Yikes.

And somehow, I miss NDP. I must go back after my papers. Yuppp.

I wanna watch Zohan!

I'm procrastinating. A whole lot. Sighhhh. I've to finish up my reports before I can continue on my revision. And I don't have alot of time left! Next Monday's the first paper alrd. ROAR.

Went Greendale for the EXCO training. I seriously felt like a zombie while on the way there cos I reached home really late last night and continued to watch sappy Taiwanese dramas after that. But I really can't help it that the lead actor is freaking cute and an exact replica of my ideal future partner righhhht? :x

So yeah, I actually felt more awake after reaching the place. I suppose they kinda rubbed their energetic-ism (I doubt there's even such a word) onto me as well. And I was glad all 15 of them came down today. :D

To date, I think I've been with them for almost 3 years now. And it's great to see how much they've learnt and the experience they've gained through the years. Hahaha, esp the 4 who just returned from ULP. I'm happy they're alrd putting in the effort to apply what they've learnt there in the unit. (:

And I know I haven't been wasting my time there, cos I feel myself growing together with them as time pass. In fact, I've learnt so many things through them too. It has been a wonderful experience indeed. (:

Caught The Happening! Well, most shows by M. Night Shyamalan should be quite good right? There were some gory and bloody scenes, I jumped at some parts. The show reminded me of I am Legend, only that the latter was much better. The ending was kinda abrupt though, but I finally understood after reading the synopsis just now. Hahaha.